{ shine bright :: graphite + mixed-media (work in progress) ©jan avellana }
chris guillebeau over at the art of non-conformity blog is doing his annual year in review and looking forward posts and i am following along. here at hazelnut cottage i have been straddling the fence, waiting, waiting to make some huge decisions--choices to be more exacting--and now i am on the edge needing to make some choices and move forward. this is the year for me to embrace the change that’s coming, i can feel it.
where my artlife is concerned, it’s high time. time to allow myself to focus and commit towards a simpler and less spastic life and a more cohesive body of work. this may mean a new full-time or part-time job outside of my studio walls. i’m not sure yet, but i am opening myself up to these possibilities. i am learning to trust BIG TIME. it is scary, exhausting and humbling, these seasons of transition, with more unknown than known staring me down--eeeeek! and yikes!
the idea of “outside work”, is especially daunting to me (all of you indie artists probably have a good idea of what i’m talking about), but i have a small hope growing inside of me that if indeed God calls me to this, in addition to my artmaking, He will also find me work i can feel purposeful about, while working alongside people that will become family to me.
where my home and personal life are concerned, 2012 will be a season of self-sacrifice and opening myself up to changes i’m not sure i’m ready to make yet...still, sometimes life doesn’t wait--it just comes on at you, ready or not. and though i fear (and dread) some of it, i know that even in this time of refining, God is already with me, walking alongside of me and there will be unexpected blessing in the journey ahead, as there has been all along.
