By early this evening I had the urgent NEED to get out of the house, so I took myself on an artist’s date and splurged on a lovely, leisurely, 2 hour dinner all by myself. And yes, I DROVE, which tells you just how B-E-S-E-R-K I was going, having not had my needful share of solitude in the last, oh, say, 3 months!
My husband thought it odd and a bit lonely that I would go to such a nice restaurant alone, but I assured him, I had a wonderful time…heavenly! With “Stories of God” by Rilke in hand and a small journal, I sat at the water’s edge and oh, well, see for yourself…
…sigh…
…what a view…
…and clarity gained through my artist’s pages, which in reality are my quiet times with God, prayers written down between He and me…I realize that along with clarity, along with the blessings of giftings comes responsibility and I realize that I’ve been running from the fact that something is being asked of me and that if I should answer fully, I will open myself up to failure, hurt, shame…or, rather, I should say, the possibility of these negatives. So I hold back, I busy up in Ape speak, I “plan” and I “research”, I “think about it” instead of just doing. But, I’m getting better at the doing. The time it takes for my (half-baked) ideas to go from gestation to birth is getting a little less…I think!
…hmpf…
…Parmesan Chicken with a Sage Butter White Wine Sauce…
…and lilikoi creme brulee ALL TO MYSELF!!!…
…this splurge, on the heels of a wonderful party last night, filled with dear friends and rich conversation…what a lucky girl I am indeed.
Blessed.
My husband thought it odd and a bit lonely that I would go to such a nice restaurant alone, but I assured him, I had a wonderful time…heavenly! With “Stories of God” by Rilke in hand and a small journal, I sat at the water’s edge and oh, well, see for yourself…
…sigh…
…what a view…
…and clarity gained through my artist’s pages, which in reality are my quiet times with God, prayers written down between He and me…I realize that along with clarity, along with the blessings of giftings comes responsibility and I realize that I’ve been running from the fact that something is being asked of me and that if I should answer fully, I will open myself up to failure, hurt, shame…or, rather, I should say, the possibility of these negatives. So I hold back, I busy up in Ape speak, I “plan” and I “research”, I “think about it” instead of just doing. But, I’m getting better at the doing. The time it takes for my (half-baked) ideas to go from gestation to birth is getting a little less…I think!
…hmpf…
…Parmesan Chicken with a Sage Butter White Wine Sauce…
…and lilikoi creme brulee ALL TO MYSELF!!!…
…this splurge, on the heels of a wonderful party last night, filled with dear friends and rich conversation…what a lucky girl I am indeed.
Blessed.
